My Biggest Regret

Dedicated to Khala Hasiba, the Angel Who Went to Heaven Too Soon

An Afghan Family (Masoud Akbari/Commons)

A lot of people, including myself, have had a lot of regrets in the past. Regrets are mistakes that you can do better at, the next time something like that happens. You can’t turn back time to restart what you already did. Instead, what you can do is to get better and fix your mistake(s). This week, I want to talk about my biggest regret and what I learned from it.

My biggest regret in my life is not spending enough time with my aunt, Hasiba. When I was little, I had an aunt who was very, very religious. She spent a lot of time reading the Quran and praying for herself, and people she loved a lot, to have a long, happy life. She loved my family and me dearly and would make things such as swings, little fun games, food, and much more for my siblings, cousins, and I. She was always a big part of my life that I loved very much. I have hundreds of memories with her. She was the best aunt I could ever ask for. I miss her more and more every day.

You might be wondering why I keep saying that I miss her. When I was about 5 or 6 years old, she unfortunately passed away. My whole family was devastated. At first, my cousins and I were confused about why everyone was crying. Then, my aunt Farkhunda told us the devastating news and I cried so hard, that now, whenever something sad happens I don’t cry until I force myself to. I was crying fountains of tears with the rest of my family. It was one of the worst days of my whole entire life.

After that day, I regretted not spending more time with her. Instead of watching cartoons, I could have gone and played with her. It would’ve been even more fun than anything. I’ve been so hard on myself for so long, but I’ve finally realized there is no point to being mad at yourself. It would have made her sad, seeing me crying and yelling at myself. It still makes me sad thinking about her, but I don’t blame anything on myself now.

That’s all I have for this week. I just want you guys to know not to blame anything on yourself if it wasn’t your fault. Nothing will be better if you blame yourself for things that happened in the past. What you should do is just fix your mistakes and take advantage of what you know you didn’t do right last time and do it better this time. Thank you so much for reading my blog!

And if there’s one thing I want you to remember, it’s this:
Love the people who love you—before it’s too late.
Time moves fast, and sometimes we don’t realize how special someone is until they’re gone. Don’t wait. Hug them. Sit with them. Tell them you love them. Even a few extra minutes can become a memory that lasts forever.

و لطفاً، پیش از آن‌که این صفحه را ببندید، به یکی از عزیزانتان بگویید: «دوستت دارم.» ممکن است فردا برای گفتنش دیر باشد.
And please—before you close this page, tell someone you love: “I love you.” Tomorrow might be too late.

Bye!!!
Love,
Aqsa